Sinking

by Rebecca Einstein Schorr on 23 October 2014 @ 2:09 pm

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I haven’t been writing.
Or exercising nearly as much as I’d like.
Or keeping up with friends.
Or even wishing them happy birthday on Facebook.

Things here in AutismLand have been difficult.
For months.
Really difficult.
Really, really,
really difficult.

I feel as though I spend my days under the weight of quick sand.
Sinking.
Or, perhaps, being yanked.

At the end of most days, I fall into bed.
Exhausted.
I have nothing left to give.
To anyone.

And, for now, that’s OK.
Because I need that energy for my children.
I need it for Ben.
And for Warren.

Don’t take my silence to mean anything other than what it is.
It is not the absence of interest. Or of love. Or of affection.
It is simply the absence of sound.
And not a permanent one.
(B’li neder)
I just don’t have any more to give right now.

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#BlogElul 2: Act

by Rebecca Einstein Schorr on 28 August 2014 @ 10:05 am

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I am terrible at predicting trends.

For example, I predicted Cyndi Lauper would be more successful than Madonna, Tiffany over Debbie Gibson, and never, never would I have thought that nearly the entire world would have jumped on the ALS #IceBucketChallenge. To the tune of nearly $100M in a month.
I have a perfect track record.

The Ice Challenge, however, has gotten a lot of people thinking about where and how we choose to make our world a better, healthier, safer, and more peaceful place. Really creative thinking. Not just about monetary gifts which, BTW, are important. But about our actions and what we can do to truly make a difference.

Which is why I love what my friend and colleague, Rabbi Danny Burkeman, has got going over at his shul, The Community Synagogue (Port Washington, NY).

the Elul Mitzvah Challenge

Rabbi Burkeman has big plans for this challenge and is encouraging all of us to participate. He’s even given us an alphabet of suggestions. If 613 of us upload a video to the #elulmitzvahchallenge FB page, The Community Synagogue will make a donation to the #36rabbis Shave for the Brave, benefiting the St. Baldrick’s Foundation.

We’ll be discussing what mitzvah we’ll be doing here at Beit Schorr at tomorrow night’s Shabbos table and post the video sometime during Elul. Because actions really do speak louder than words.

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The Jewish month of Elul, which precedes the High Holy Days, is traditionally a time of renewal and reflection. It offers a chance for spiritual preparation for the Days of Awe. It is traditional to begin one’s preparation for the High Holy Days during this month with the Selichot, the prayers of forgiveness. We look to begin the year with a clean slate, starting anew, refreshed. All month, along with others, I’ll be blogging a thought or two, b’li neder, for each day to help with the month of preparation… Follow me on twitter @rebeccaschorr for all the #BlogElul posts.

This is the brainchild of Ima on (and off) the Bimah. You can follow her on twitter @imabima for all the #BlogElul posts, not only mine but others’ as well! Read more about #BlogElul here.

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Inappropriate Pressure

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Last week, after months of planning, scores of rabbis from across North America shaved their heads as part of the #36rabbis project. (Here is the Rashi on the #36rabbis.) It was a transcendent experience. And one that has raised more than half a million dollars as the top St. Baldrick’s event of the year and […]

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Invitation

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Maybe that is what it takes. An invitation to participate. Perhaps that is why you haven’t given to the cause. SO consider yourself invited. Invited to donate to the #36rabbis. Invited to support the efforts of my seventy-two colleagues who are going bald to raise awareness. Invited to fund essential pediatric cancer research. Invited to […]

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